I’m going to a friend’s house on Sunday for his birthday party. Should be fun. A lot of my friends will be there, including one of my closest friend’s new boyfriend. Who I have yet to meet. And I’ve been panicking about it. I don’t want to freak out and give him a bad impression.
I searched for Anxiety on tumblr and found a tone of pictures of people’s wrists with ; tattoo’d on them. I don’t understand.
Seeds of Iblis- Behind the Horns of Allah
this album is legitimately incredible. i was really big on janaza a few years ago, i don’t know why i didn’t check out this band too.
Anonymous asked: top 5 black metal
Good question! In no particular order:
Anaal Nathrakh (if you wanna count them)
Chthonic (they aren’t really BM anymore but albums like Seediq Bale are quite BM)
And Happy Days.
friendfathers asked: Hey, it looks like you've been getting pretty down on yourself lately. I don't talk to you really, but it doesn't sound like things are going too great. I just wanna let you know you can always talk to me if you want. Either way, I hope you don't give up on trying to make friends and talk to people, even if it can be really tough. I'm holdin out for ya to feel better!
Thank you. means a lot
I’m just going to stop saying things. I either get ignored or people complain at me for what I’ve said. I just can’t win. I try so hard to watch what I say, to think about the feelings of everyone else but I just can’t manage it all the time. I have a constant fear of upsetting someone. According to my therapist that is one of the things that triggers my anxiety. So fuck it. Not saying anything for the foreseeable future.
I kept getting called “Straight Edge” because I don’t drink, smoke or do drugs. Right my 2 cents.
1: I know its just a name, but I am faaaar from straight
2: I don’t understand the need of some people to call themselves something for avoiding alcohol, smoking, and other such drugs.
3: A lot of “Straight Edge” people I’ve met have been very openly rude to people who do drink, smoke, etc. And although I personally think drinking, smoking and doing drugs is pretty fucking stupid. I’m not about to go up to someone having a pint and give them trouble. You are not superior for not drinking, or smoking or doing whatever. If you are doing this to feel superior you are just douche.
4: Drawing “X” on your hand is lame
5: I don’t even like wrestling
6: Apparently I don’t qualify for being “Straight Edge” according to some people anyway because I drink caffeine, eat meat and have sex. So whatever.
Sometimes I realize how much I hate bandom